i want to love my occupation.

It’s not a matter of questioning if this is what i was meant to be doing, it’s asking yourself if you love what you’re doing. i don’t want to take a couple years studying for endless hours, only to realize in the end that this isn’t what i want to do for the rest of my life. I don’t want a mediocre job that has no meaning to me. 

We all had dreams as kids, dreams we all intended to pursue. maybe its about time we stop letting our fears get in the way and finally take initiative. i want to do something with my life, not just sit in a cubicle counting someone’s taxes. this isn’t the life i wanted to live. i’ll find my calling someday but for now, i think it finally hit me. it’s time i start living my life and that begins with going places. looking for something i have interest in. finding myself. Maybe if i just start doing something i want to do and live my life the way i want to live it, the dots will finally start to connect.